Monday, April 13, 2009

mixed

Okay I'm not doing anything today some lemme me blog...

Something really urkes me and pisses me off.

The subject of "mixed girls"

Like why is it now so cool to be "mixed" (people who don't know what that means, that is a person who is bi-racial or multi-racial)? As far as I remember I was ALWAYS made fun because I looked different. People and children didn't know if I was mixed with asian, hispanic, indian or etc. Playing at the playground I was made fun of because I had long curly thick hair. I remember when I was in the 7th grade and wore my natural curly hair and out everyone laughed at me. After home room I ran so fast in the bathroom with tears in my hand and wet my hair so it would curl downward and look thinner.

Not until I was (I don't know...) 14 or 15, I was always asked my nationality. Til this day everytime I go out alone, I'm ALWAYS asked my nationality. I used to say just African American and people who just look at me like yeah fucking right.

I feel that for alot of guys they approach me, that is the only thing they care about. Having a mixed girl because she looks exotic and our kids will have "that good hair". Come on is that truly the only meaning of life?

I have gotten used to it but it still urkes me when someone askes me what I'm "mixed with".

I tell them I'm Antarctican!

2 comments:

Understanding said...

Don't be so harsh on folks. As shallow as it may sound I think u get asked that a lot because u're beautiful and people just wanna know. I mean hell when I 1st saw your photos that's what I wondered as well but I didn't DARE ask only b/c something told me that u had already been asked that question like a million times lol.

Anonymous said...

it's irritating when people think that you can't be just black AND pretty. it's like, "ok, you're black and what else??" like it's impossible! America still has this slave mentality that "white is right" and it's dehumanizing. I understand where you're coming from. I have slanted eyes and reddish skin people are like, "Are you mixed?" and i reply, "i can't just be black??" why do we have to diminish our roots to be pretty?? "I'm black, this, this, and this..." Some *clearly* black girls claim to be everything other than black and need to come out of denial. to be African-American is to be mixed in itself! I have African (hair), Korean (eyes, flat face), and Native American (high cheekbones, red skin) ancestry but I ID myself as BLACK. there are no full black Americans! I know this was posted back in April, but I just wanted to say something. black is beautiful. it sad that people believe that to be beautiful, you can't be full black. has anyone seen Alek Wek or Vanessa Williams? they ID themselves as black.

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